I really don't know where else to talk about this. I was watching a video today about vegetable oils and their negative health impacts and I just found myself feeling concerned and frustrated. I know logically that the best way to increase my longevity and overall health in life is through diet and exercise. I am not exceedingly unhealthy. I have a normal body weight, I exercise in some form (walking, gym, disc golf, gardening etc) 3-4 times a week, and I eat a mixed diet of processed foods and home cooked meals. But I just feel so utterly frustrated by just how HARD it is to eat an ancestral or ideal diet in this global industrial civilization.
If I were to be in my ideal health I would be eating essentially an unprocessed diet with whole grain freshly milled non rancid flours, no vegetable seed oils, no industrial foods etc.
But I cannot do that and the reasons are manyfold. First of all I have a history with a severe eating disorder, any sort of restrictive diet for me is very triggering and can create a re-incidence of anorexia. Secondly I have a number of chronic mental health issues that impact my ability to executive function including cooking for myself, preparing food, food textures/flavors, remembering eating meals etc. I REGULARLY struggle with low appetite and I can get in slumps where I just don't eat. Then add on the barriers of industrial civilization wherein healthy food is EXPENSIVE and time consuming to produce and make consumable. And there just seems to be secret terrible ingredients everywhere, it's hard to even navigate a grocery store without CONSTANT advertisement and bombardment, Farmer's markets are expensive as fuck, and food prep is exhausting after seeing 5+ psychotherapy clients in a given day. So even if i'm cooking at home it feels like i'm introducing toxicity into my life like through GMOs, unsprouted/rancid grains and flours, weird unpronouncable additives etc.
And trust me i'm already doing a lot. We eat grass fed beef and lamb that we buy in bulk. We cook as much as we can manage. We eat plenty of fruits and vegetables. I rarely consume sodas except as a treat a few times a month. I only eat candy here and there as a treat. I buy chips in small packages so im not eating several servings at a time. etc etc.
sometimes it's just an uphill battle to get ENOUGH food and energy into my body let alone the RIGHT food.
I am so frustrated by a system that is not evolved for someone like me. I have a hunter gatherer's brain. I like to meander, pick things up, talk, move around and spend as minimal time as possible being a "productive member of society". I wish I could go back in time and keep some of the aspects of modern life like medicine while keeping the aspects of indigenous societies that we evolved for like walking, gathering, tight knit social communties, and real fucking food.