One Permaculture artisan or many? Plan or do? Collaborate or be the Lone wolf?
Some rambling thoughts on a subject that’s got a lot of energy for me. Forgive the phonetic spelling, as I dictated this, and the lack of coherence of some of it.
I find myself putting far too much mental energy into tiny decisions, like whether to bring the compost bucket in now from the sun or do it on my next trip, and procrastinating, attempting to crack open the big black book or do a whole new design for my land. Find myself thinking that people who just plant trees in different places and do things intuitively are really missing the boat, people who try to plan every detail and never put up in the ground or out to lunch. No, this is not about anyone else, but my inner critic talking about me, The point being that I find myself in the mirror of the other. I get oriented in relationship and finding relationship. Permaculture is a hard thing to do, at least it has been up till now.
Witness the lonePermaculturist, growing weird plants and ranting to anyone who will listen, which is hardly anyone we’re getting burnt out, unhealthy and having to put their land up for sale to someone who’s going to tear it down and build a man. Surely that there’s got to be a better leverage point for this person to use then brute force.
It would be better in Community, I can try one approach, you can try another, and now we have diversified our approaches. If one crashes and burns, but the other one thrives, that’s not bad. I’ll feel embolden to take bigger risks, as will you, and we can trade surplus of vegetables we’ve gotten sick of.
So now we’re fisted with the new question, what format should we use for our gathering? What will keep it together, instead of having it fizzle out is so many things have before.? Should we use soy, is there someway that Permaculture principles can get applied to interpersonal relationship? I have this awesome tool that sends me over the moon, but the only people I’ve gotten to do it with me are more seeker types, not people with actual gardens. You say let’s mastermind, and that’s sounding OK to me, but it is a tool that business people have used, not something specifically tailored to the ever-changing situation that a Permaculturist faces.
And what’s under my need to connect, alongside the sense of wanting to have more different baskets to put different eggs in collectively, is a frequent sense of loneliness. Or just boredom. Shoveling dirt onto a Hugel culture bed was only entertaining for the first 15 minutes, And many podcasts later I’m actually really craving some actual human interaction.
So here’s my actual new realization, which all of the above was simply a lead-in to. I don’t need just one perfect format or one perfect group of people, that’s gonna work for all time. We could try either format, people will either show up or it’ll fizzle before the second meeting. Either way, something will be learned, it’s not gonna be the end of the world, and we could try either end of the spectrum, really well planned on the one hand were flying by the seat of our pants on the other. There’s also room for both, maybe I’ll do chores and chat over the phone with someone in the afternoons, and then have a really focused gathering of a group once a month.
I don’t have to find the one Perfect Permaculture artisan, there’s a balance point, using some percentage of one school of thought, and taking a little from others, there’s a balance point between planning and flying. And there’s a balance point for different formats of collaboration gatherings.
Underlying the whole thing is my fear that they’re just won’t be enough. There won’t be enough time to have plants come to fruit before someone comes to bulldoze my garden. There won’t be enough time before people decide that I’m hard to love, and quietly exit or go to the group, or realize that they’ve got to go to their sisters, baby shower that day, or alphabetize their inbox. I’m being a little snarky, but human beings will human. That’s how it can feel to me sometimes, that I’m really swimming upstream, that America just shits on communal efforts constantly.
The other thing that I realizing that we’re in a different time now, and a format for gathering that really flubbed and fizzled five years ago might have reached its time now. Maybe today there’s enough momentum and appetite, and people are ready for it. maybe people are even hungry for , kind of gathering that they weren’t gonna do before, and maybe even willing to be more flexible with the rough edges, with people getting triggered or being loudmouths, with our hunger to be heard finally, with our tendency to get overexcited or suddenly deflated.
We Permaculturists are a lot. I really like the idea that America is more ready for Permaculture to thrive then it was five years ago or even just one. looking at things that way takes away a lot of fear and sense of scarcity.