My heart feels heavy these days. I’m finding it hard to be around others and I mostly want to spend my time alone.
One of the reasons I came here was to learn about community dynamics and to gain whatever personal development I could from that and pushing myself in a new direction.
Of course, the idea of this seemed much rosier than the actual experience turns out to be. Not that there haven’t been wonderful moments, but the less-than-wonderful seem to be bogging me down.
Everything about this lifestyle is new and unfamiliar, there is no script to go by. I’m having to learn everything, constantly and over and over.
And I’ve never been good at being a beginner...
“Learning is pain,” and pain is learning.