The toughest part to permaculture, for me, is playing the fool. In conversations with people who haven't taken the time to learn about my INTEREST I'm constantly biting my tongue and holding on to the silence as long as I can. This means being the brunt of jokes and being portrayed as confused. We permaculturists are required to stack functions and diversify our labor. The one's who waste most of my time, money, and energy are the one's closest to me physically in space. In deciding to act as local as possible means for my hometown to pay the bill, as well as my family. The cost is enormous, but I feel the pop effect on the way, unfortunately time becomes the solution as well as the test. I'm tired of absorbing force and ready to create. Anybody hear my cries?
Yeah, stacking functions, diversifying labor, localizing, etc. all work better when people are working well with each other or at least trusting and relying on each other for certain things. People in the system are going to make all sorts of dynamics of which creativity is a big factor. I've been in certified awesome groups of people where confusion leads to frustration but also some good laughs.
Not sure what you mean by 'pop', but i'm guessing its not a good financial strategy. i can hardly wait until some of my problems are eased into compassion when i win the megamillions. the rest of your post about bills and such is sort of lost on me without context, but, heard and wish ya good luck with your challenges. Some days are harder than others, being present and aware is the first part of the solution.