The past two nights of sleep have been so relaxing.. a nice shift since the platform got leveled.. yay! so good!.. Paul informed me that the scat pebbles may cause tent-rot.. hmm.. I probably should lift the tent and pick out the remaining pebbles.. Other than the potential tent-rot, I'm starting to get used to all the wild noises at night.. the chorus of insects (grasshopper? crickets? beetles? oh my), the howling of coyotes in the distance, and the occasional gentle grazing of what i think might be deer or turkeys.. now these sounds are just waves rocking me to back to sleep throughout the night.. so to speak.. My hands, neck/shoulders are sore so I plan to sleep it off on the newly leveled bed! can you tell I'm excited about the leveled bed? =D (Inge, thanks for asking!.. I hope your bed is awesomely level as well!)
As I write this morning entry, the delicious aroma of egg-breakfast on the skillet caresses my entire face and nasal passages.. yum.. the other boots are cooking.. alas, my own breakfast is later.. bc of my attempt to lift The Heavy.. So far so good actually.. yesterday morning, I felt light and clear (which was the intention).. Yesterday afternoon I felt a little more sluggish toward 4-5pm (lunch was very filling).. Dinner was veggie stir fry with quinoa and peanut sauce by Josiah.. The Heavy was kinda still lingering, and I realized something new-ish--I'm probably getting used to having "roommates" around.. I'd been living mostly alone for the past 10 years or so, so I probably got set in my way about the way things are done and how short the interactions are with the people around me.. we just interacted in passing.. now, its a little different..we interact in remaining.. "Everything Gardens." stepping into the role of a gardener is what I must be learning.. and The Heavy is quite likely part of my growing pains.. I'm now a gardener of and being gardened by those around me, in a way.. When I feel stressed, I hope to remember to breathe.. When I feel joy, I hope to remember to be grateful..
To those who are reading my entries.. these are a combination of my perspectives, which are often in journaling-format.. The pictures are usually random captures of beautiful moments throughout my day.. Please enjoy the parts that are enjoyable to you.. and forget the rest =D
POST 12 (DAY 18, 2020.08.28)
THE WORK: AM shift, I helped with the Red CabinRMH.. awesome to finally put my hands on this project..!
PM shift.. loosening up them hips with more Timber Harvest.. love this exercise.. come out and i'll teach you the dance!!
btw today was the best photo day ive had here so far.. i tried to fit the 20 photo limit but couldnt bring the count below 27.. enjoy =D Happy Friday y'all~
POST 13 (DAY 19, 2020.08.29)
Today is Saturday.. I’m purposely being lazy and doing bare minimum.. because that’s what recharges my battery sometimes.. here are some progress pictures of the RMH in the Red Cabin..
POST 14 (DAY 20, Sunday 2020.08.30)
Past three days I've been having vivid dreams.. pretty unusual for me because my dreams are usually hard to remember.. the timing coincides with the leveling of the tent platform AS WELL AS the shift in my dietary regimen.. so maybe its one or both of those.. speaking of which I FEEL GREAT!.. these past three days of eating less/lighter have brought me much mental clarity and emotional stability.. I find myself more moody when my belly is full, and I would attribute this pattern to the idea of ego.. basically (I believe), when my belly is empty, I feel more vulnerable and thus more likely to be a kind/gentle person.. so I surmise that the opposite must be true when my belly is full--the arrogance rises.. these past three nights of sleep have been more cozy than strugglesome--when the platform was angled (with feet level four inches higher than head level, I could feel myself almost fighting to stay asleep.. Now, I wake up refreshed and ready for the day.. though honestly still pretty sore in my hands.. Which means, my exercise regimen could probably use a bump.. =D diet & exercise--natures medicine..
POST 15 (DAY 21, Monday 2020.08.31)
Good Morning~! The diet regimen and platform leveling have certainly improved my quality of life.. the past few days, I've challenged myself to slowly jog to the Willow Bank for 3-5 minutes to warm up and stimulate my lymphatic and cardiovascular flow.. FPH plot is a somewhat hilly terrain, so even just walking around helps with strengthening.. Last night on my way to bed, I heard in my heart "hills are good".. that spun my next thought to "everything is uphill for children".. I feel that babies come into the world breathing.. breathing is usually their only skill.. and yet, by the time humans are older, often their breathing is shallow and weak.. currently my breathing is shallow, weak, and unsteady.. when I was practicing yoga, my breath was deep, strong and focused.. I'd like to get back to that.. realistically, and fortunately, I can practice my breathing technique even as I write this entry.. =D
POST 15 (DAY 21, Monday 2020.08.31)
THE WORK: AM--Tree harvest--usually this consists of felling, de-limbing, and peeling timber.. Today was randomly drizzly, so we worked in the cold/wet.. my hands got stiff, my toes were soaked, and my shoulders were damp.. not the best condition for this kind of activity for me, but the rest of the team seemed okay for the most part.. ahh to be young again--when core temp was almost always stable and warm.. (at some point in my massage career, I mentally disconnected my ability to raise my core temp at will because I was sweating too much for my own comfort while giving massages.. I am hoping to regain this ability through some breathing exercises I will develop during my time here.. more to come on that later..)
PM--Patio Stone Floor.. So since I was working alone today, I decided to do a rough mathematical estimate of hourly progress when working alone.. its about 1-1.25 square feet of stone laid per hour.. I like to think that this goes fast when working with a partner--however, this observation was based on a "feeling" of time passing rather than actual time passing.. basically most work here feels funner with a partner.. that's not to say that working alone can't also be fun--there are times when either option can be appropriate..
DINNER: Curry rice usually does not make me feel full for some reason.. maybe its the spices.. this has been true about me ever since childhood.. when my mother made me curry rice, i would eat 2-3 helpings easily before feeling full.. Thanks, mom.. thanks Clayton.. for feeding this hungry boy.. =D
FEELS: Today I feel normal.. The Heavy has pretty much gone away.. I'm practicing letting go.. of control, basically.. control of social situations and other peoples' possible perceptions of me.. I call it the practice of IDGAF.. some people do it naturally or overtly.. I wish to do it as a monk might.. being in the present prevents worries about the future or the past from clouding clarity.. "don't sweat the small stuff.. and by the way, its all small stuff".. Actually a fellow boot said it this way, "don't try to compensate" for a social mistake that I think I may have made.. just carry on with my life as I normally would and without giving any special attention to the possible faux pas.. oh, how my mind wants to focus in on minor details and possible errors.. that voice that says "what if s/he thinks THIS about me or THAT about me.. etc.." so egoic and unimportant.. stepping outside of that monologue makes me wonder--where does it even come from? that voice in my head that revels in placing blame or causing a guilty feeling.. let's let that go.. and simply not give a fork about anything but the present.. breath..
I guess today has been about breathing.. even while working in the drizzle.. I was trying to boost my core temp by breathing hard and deep.. it kind of worked, but I couldn't really tell if I'm being honest..
PHOTOS: went outside after my after-work break to take some shots around the FPH.. mostly caught some nature-y things.. enjoy~! =D