Judith Browning wrote: it's hard to differentiate between feeling stuck and feeling challenged or feeling like a failure. There is nothing wrong with thoughtful life changes...it is not failure or giving up, it can be life changing and open up a whole new world.
James Freyr wrote:Elle, It sounds to me like your heart is no longer in the place you live. How does your husband feel? What I’m getting at is people can make a life anywhere. There are other nice schools all over the country that I think your children would acclimate to and really enjoy. I think you’re smart and can get a great job with a legal firm anywhere. I don’t know anything about y’alls family, but I believe families support family, even if they may not understand. It can be difficult for you and your husband to leave what is familiar and start something new in a new place, but people adapt. Perhaps this yearning to move and have an abundant and successful garden is something within you trying to get your attention and hinting it’s time to move on to new things.
John F Dean wrote:Hi Elle,,
I am going to shift gears here to help provide a tool that might help you organize your thoughts and actions.
What do you want? To grow fruits and vegetables
What are you doing? ALL THE THINGS!!!
Is what you are doing getting you what you want? Nope :(
If it isn't, what do you need to change? Probably location
If you keep doing what you are doing, you will keep getting what you have got.
S Bengi wrote:Try not to think of your land as 40acres but as only 2 acres.
With acres 3 - 40 your wild area and by wild, I mean bare empty desert.
With 10ft centers you can plant 871 trees on 2 acres. That's actually still a ridiculous amount of trees and shrubs. I would have z hard time dgging that many holes.
Next I would get woodchip, biochar and drip line irrigation.
Then I would start digging 4ft wide x 4ft deep holes for my plants (not just for a apple tree but also for a goji-berry).
It sounds like you are less frustrated with your legally irrigated 2 acres and more so with unirrigated 38 acres of naturally desert.